I danced with Jesus

I'm in the prayer room tonight, soaking up The Lord with the last bit of my day that's left. This afternoon I prayed for revelation. Sitting with my head down the band started to play a song I love by Kari Jobe "The More I Seek You." I closed my eyes and The Lord allowed me to dream with Him for a moment.
I was standing in the dark and trying to spin freely, like a ballerina. But I kept failing and falling down. I laid on the ground weeping, because I knew that I didn't know what I was doing and I couldn't do it alone. Then it was bright around me. I looked beside me and saw a glowing hand reaching out, it looked big and as trustworthy as a hand could look. I quickly grabbed ahold of the hand, knowing that it was the hand of The Lord. He picked me up and started helping me spin, and suddenly I was so beautiful! He kept His hand on mine and kept helping me spin, the smile on my face was more genuine than it had ever been. In the darkness that was shaped around us I could see the outline of many countries. The Lord started to turn me to these dark places, and we passed over them together. We spun with might and power, and as we passed each place its color changed from black to bright gold. The places we spun by were shinning. There was still dark places before us, but His strong hand held tight to mine and He kept me spinning.

Worship-Bryce Anderson

To really worship from the heart, we need to have a revelation of who God is (Isaiah 6:1-6)

When we have a revelation it is good to share so we fulfill the enjoyment of worship.

My prayer (1:17-18)

Scripture is pre-packaged dynamite. When we pray His heart back to Him, He longs to answer.

Worship is enjoyable. When we see something about Jesus, we respond- agree and step in truth.

In HIS presence there is fullness of joy!

If Jesus bought us with His body, shouldn't He enjoy what He
purchased? God is more excited about hearing me worship Him with my voice, because I am His, and I am the only one that can worship Him from my own heart.

I get to make The Father happy with my worship .

Worship is the goal_intimacy and relationship

Worship is compromised of feelings & truth.

Feelings sometimes have to catch up to truth and vice-versa.

Worship is falling prostate in submission.

I am made in the image of God. When I am acting like someone other than myself, I am watering down His image.

Two areas of worship:
Adoration- who He is
Thanksgiving- what He's done

He will release His fullness if we love one another (John 15:8-17)

Psalm 103

January 10, 2013

Have you ever walked into a place where you can feel the Holy Spirit send chills all over your body? My new favorite place to have quiet time is the prayer room on campus here at Ywam. When I walk and kneel in this prayer room I can feel Jesus holding me. I look around and the literal view is the ocean outside the window. In the early mornings and late afternoons I look out and see an orange and pink sunset that captures my heart and only makes me more awestruck before my creator God. When I pray and look deeper I see myself before Jesus with His scars and blood covered body that took on my skin. I feel my heart broken for every iniquity within myself.
This morning The Lord made Matthew 6 so very real for me.

*whenever I don't know what to pray before The Lord I will pray His prayer, "Our Father in heaven, hallowed be Thy Name."
* I am not here for "eye service" or to be a man pleaser.
* I love the fact that The Lord delights in us coming to Him in prayer and worship in "the secret place"
* "For my Father knows what I need before I ask Him."
* I will not store treasures here on earth that moth will eat and thieves steal. "For where my treasure is, there my heart will be also." Let my treasure be You, Jesus.
* I love verses 33-34 and feel like they are going to be made so real to me. "Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.....Don't worry about tomorrow."

The best of happiness is true joy, and that comes only from Jesus. I've found that its not necessarily "here" or "there" where I belong. Near The Lord, as close to Him as I can be, that is where I will always be. I am seeking Jesus in His word, my trust is in Him. He is the answer.

Sunday, January 6

A broken and a contrite heart is precious to The Lord. I am here in Kona, Hawaii. Away from my family, church, boyfriend and friends. I've tried to let every possible thing get in the way of me coming to this place, this uninterrupted time with Jesus. I will confess that Im a little frightened of what He is going to tell me. I know whatever He tells me is His good and perfect will and I have to as His child, obey. Whether I like His will or not at first, I know that as I delight in Him, His plan will become my passion (psalm 37:4) This is how I found myself in Ywam, this is how I am and will become a missionary. I am not afraid nor am I intimidated to serve The Lord. I'm not scared to raise my hands as far as they will go. I'm not afraid to shout Jesus in the sanctuary. I'm not afraid to be looked at as the weird spiritual girl. I am terrified however of not following The Lords will for my life and not being as in complete love with Jesus as I could be. I prayed today that with each minute The Lord would draw me nearer. With each hour that He would make me more like His son. My hope is in You, Lord and every thought is towards You. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Arriving to Reality

I've been planning for this day for a year and a half. I planned everything out so well; Fund raisers, support letters, packing. I should have focused more on something you can't quite pack. I should have taken more time preparing my heart for this journey. I've been flying for almost eleven hours now and I can not sleep at all. I've finally come to the realization that I am leaving my family, the people I love and my nice comfortable life for six months. I love my family and friends more than any word I could muster up. I know that they love me too, so dearly, but I never imagined they would be this supportive and show so much love and care in sending me away. You can't really prepare yourself for how difficult it is to say goodbye to the people you love. I never thought it would be as hard as it is,saying goodbye.
All I have been able to pray all week is, Lord please sustain me, please prepare my heart. As I sat in the airport waiting for my first flight to board I knew I was apart of something so much bigger than myself. I am apart of a plan that is still unknown by me but known by an ever present, faithful God. His thoughts are higher and ways are so much greater than my own. I am so happy He found it good that my best friend Morgan come with me on this six month mission journey. He knew I needed her and I sit here now and know that I do. Thank You Lord for being a merciful God, for the Blessing of family and best friends. My comfort zone is about to be shaken. I have to pray daily not to have an expectant heart. I know I should just be trusting The Lord. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I am. But, I know that my life as a Christ follower is not called to comfort or contentment. I am ready for my heart to be further pricked and pruned. I am ready to completely trade my heart and its sinful desires in for the desires of my Father. Thank you Lord, for being a sovereign God.

1 Corinthians 1:7-9 "so that you come short in no gift, eagerly waiting for the revelation of our Lord Jesus Christ, who will also confirm you to the end, that you may be blameless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord."