Arriving to Reality

I've been planning for this day for a year and a half. I planned everything out so well; Fund raisers, support letters, packing. I should have focused more on something you can't quite pack. I should have taken more time preparing my heart for this journey. I've been flying for almost eleven hours now and I can not sleep at all. I've finally come to the realization that I am leaving my family, the people I love and my nice comfortable life for six months. I love my family and friends more than any word I could muster up. I know that they love me too, so dearly, but I never imagined they would be this supportive and show so much love and care in sending me away. You can't really prepare yourself for how difficult it is to say goodbye to the people you love. I never thought it would be as hard as it is,saying goodbye.
All I have been able to pray all week is, Lord please sustain me, please prepare my heart. As I sat in the airport waiting for my first flight to board I knew I was apart of something so much bigger than myself. I am apart of a plan that is still unknown by me but known by an ever present, faithful God. His thoughts are higher and ways are so much greater than my own. I am so happy He found it good that my best friend Morgan come with me on this six month mission journey. He knew I needed her and I sit here now and know that I do. Thank You Lord for being a merciful God, for the Blessing of family and best friends. My comfort zone is about to be shaken. I have to pray daily not to have an expectant heart. I know I should just be trusting The Lord. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I am. But, I know that my life as a Christ follower is not called to comfort or contentment. I am ready for my heart to be further pricked and pruned. I am ready to completely trade my heart and its sinful desires in for the desires of my Father. Thank you Lord, for being a sovereign God.

1 Corinthians 1:7-9 "so that you come short in no gift, eagerly waiting for the revelation of our Lord Jesus Christ, who will also confirm you to the end, that you may be blameless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord."